It’s been a while since I’ve talked about my feelings on my blog or vlog. I always felt like that was a sort of no-go, as if all of my unnecessary problems created by overthinking and insecurities would scare people away from me. They probably would, to be fair, but today I’m going to address them anyway and try to get to the core of this lingering issue.
Insecurities, we all have them; big or small. I feel as if many (or perhaps just some) bloggers deal with them on a daily basis. Personally, I always have a little voice in the back of my mind asking all of these supposedly unnecessary questions about my blog and vlog: “Do people even like my vlogs?”, “Do people even like me?”, “Am I blogging enough?”, “Are my blog posts good enough?”, “Are my pictures good enough?”, “Am I good enough?” and it wasn’t until recently that I have been trying to let all of those insecurities and questions go. It all started with the change from Reckless Glamour to Dreams in Motion. I had decided that from that point on I would only do things that I love and that made me happy. I am not fully satisfied with my blog or vlog (posts) yet and to be honest, knowing myself, I don’t think I ever will be. I have learned so much throughout my blogging/vlogging journey and I do have a feeling that I am progressing and getting better, but I will never reach the state of perfection that I wish to reach. Honestly though, do I even want to reach that point? I’m still having that moral discussion with myself sometimes since, in all honesty, I do think that living in the state of perfection would get rather boring after a while because you will have nothing to learn or to progress in. I think I’d rather live in an eternal learning curve, despite the insecurities and having to deal with the somewhat cruel thoughts that occasionally shoot through my mind.
Though those agonizing thoughts still haunt me from time to time and I sometimes still feel lost in a sea of insecurities, I will try to cross it to reach the lands of happiness and positivity. Let me know if you’d like to cross these waters together so we can have ourselves a wonderful nautical adventure and perhaps find a merry little land filled with wonders and treasures to get lost upon, shall we?
Speaking of land filled with wonders and treasures, I went on an adventure to The Trace and it was such a wonderful experience. The Trace is filled with lots of loveliness, it’s a very serene and peaceful place and definitely has a Sunday afternoon-vibe to it. I wore this lovely blouse and skirt from Cosmic Dust which is currently available at Kustom9 and matched it with one of my favorite pair of boots from Entice.
“Act like tomorrow just doesn’t exist
Time isn’t real, ain’t nothing on my wrist
Let go of everything, then you have bliss”
– G-Eazy, Let’s Get Lost
Hair: rezology Sky 208 *
Dress: [Cosmic Dust] – Emilia Blouse/Skirt Combo – Red @ Kustom9 *
Boots: Entice – The Rebels – Browns *
Head: .tsg. Runa Mesh Head A Tone *
Ears: .tsg. Mesh Head Elf Ear Add-on *Modest* A * – included w/ head
Body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V3.5
Kustom9 | June 15 – July 10
NOTE: The Entice store is currently under construction. The slurl I have added is a temporary location. My apologies for the inconvenience.