It’s quite ironic how my Second Life username is Kawaiilian, yet I rarely actually post kawaii-styled photos. I figured it was about time to delve back into the world of sugary adorability and I quickly found myself working on this lookbook-styled photo, Continue reading
Rewind is back on the grid, taking us back to the 80’s this time around. I have always been a fan of 80’s aesthetic and music, which is why I was incredibly excited for this round in particular. Continue reading
March has partly been such a spindrift for me since it was also the premier month for my new event: Cutie Loot. I have had so much fun working on this project and was so happy to hear the incredible feedback from all the cuties that had ordered the box. Continue reading
Cuddle Up is a new clothing brand which made its debut at the January round of MBA Bi-Monthly. I am wearing their cropped sweater and sneakers and they are absolutely adorable. Continue reading
One of my all time favorite movies is ’13 going on 30′. I watched it when I was 13 years old myself and found that I could greatly relate to 13 year old Jenna. How I longed to be an independent adult with a fabulous carreer, lover and boobs (!), or at least be the Regina George of my small town high school and steal kisses from all the hot seniors. Unfortunately my fetch high school life never actually took off and my chances to be the future head editor of Vogue have thus decreased to the point of nonexistence and ironically, the word ‘adulthood’ has, instead of sparking up juvinele hopes, dreams and wishes, started to make me feel rather anxious and downhearted.
As a so-called “young adult”, I have only set my first footsteps into this rather eerie world of responsibilities and reality, though I fear for what lays further down the road. Truly, I have a wishful feeling that my youthful senses will never decay because they are more than simply part of a number; of my age. Instead, they are a part of the core of my very excistence, a part of my heart and mind. I suppose my fear extends further than what lies on the surface, it goes beyond just the responsibilities and the reality I am forced to face. What I truly fear is the loss of who I am, the loss of that ‘core of my very excistence’.
I have met incredibly many people in my life and recently started to notice that I am not able to imagine that some of these people were young once. Perhaps that is part of my ignorance, though I like to believe that it is more than just that. This proofs itself when I ask these people about their youth. They speak of it as if it is someone elses distant memory, as it is a retold anecdote that they once heard at a bar or party. I want these young and (relatively) wild days of mine to be more than a retold anecdote, I want them to matter to me. I long to remember these days as moments that have shaped my life into what it will be by the time I have ventured further down the roads of adulthood.
On the whole, today’s life lesson, given by my overly philosophical self who likes to believe she is far wiser than she probably is, is the importance of remembering that every moment you live through, the things you do and every word you say (or write!), matters. You will find that these are part of the factors that define who you are as they set the bricks for the path of a life that you have chosen to live ♥
“How I’d love to find
That old place of mine
Feel the afternoon glow
Something warm, something slow
But our minds got small
When our legs grew tall
And our eyes don’t see right
Give me soul, give me sight”
– The Paper Kites, When Our Legs Grew Tall
On another (final) note, The Paper Kites are one of my favorite bands and it was around this time last year that I discovered my love for their words and sound. I hope you lovely readers will enjoy this tune as much as I do.
Cosmic Dust – Her Messy Desk Part 2 @ The Epiphany
Laptop: [Cosmic Dust] – The MaxBook Computer – Gold RARE
Hairbrush: [Cosmic Dust] – Lovely Hairbrush – Pink
Powderbox #1: [Cosmic Dust] – Cosmetic Compact – Pink
Powderbox #2: [Cosmic Dust] – Cosmetic Compact – Purple
Powderbox #3: [Cosmic Dust] – Cosmetic Compact – Purple
Coke cans: [Cosmic Dust] – Cosmic Cola
Glasses: [Cosmic Dust] – Hipster Glasses
Paper airplane: [Cosmic Dust] – Paper Airplane
Books: [Cosmic Dust] – Stack of Books
Magazine: [Cosmic Dust] – Shade Magazine
Bed: Fiasco – Moon Twin Bed Large @ Color Me Cute
uk – Gypsy Cabinet and Quilts Set
Cabinet: uK- Gypsy Cabinet White Empty
Quilt (middle shelf): uK – Gypsy Quilt Clump 2
Quilt (bottom shelf): uK – Gypsy Quilt Clump 1
Quilt stack (by the bed): uK – Gypsy Quilts Stack
Wall frames: uK – Gypsy Frames White
CHEZ MOI – Home Office Nob Hill
Pouf: White Pouf Nob Hill CHEZ MOI
Roses: Roses Nob Hill CHEZ MOI
Wall art: Be Awesome Today Pic CHEZ MOI
Lamp: Hanging Lamp
Rug: [MAGIC NOOK] White Fake Fur
The Epiphany | July 15 – August 15
Color Me Cute | July 15 – August 1
It’s been a while since I’ve talked about my feelings on my blog or vlog. I always felt like that was a sort of no-go, as if all of my unnecessary problems created by overthinking and insecurities would scare people away from me. They probably would, to be fair, but today I’m going to address them anyway and try to get to the core of this lingering issue.
Insecurities, we all have them; big or small. I feel as if many (or perhaps just some) bloggers deal with them on a daily basis. Personally, I always have a little voice in the back of my mind asking all of these supposedly unnecessary questions about my blog and vlog: “Do people even like my vlogs?”, “Do people even like me?”, “Am I blogging enough?”, “Are my blog posts good enough?”, “Are my pictures good enough?”, “Am I good enough?” and it wasn’t until recently that I have been trying to let all of those insecurities and questions go. It all started with the change from Reckless Glamour to Dreams in Motion. I had decided that from that point on I would only do things that I love and that made me happy. I am not fully satisfied with my blog or vlog (posts) yet and to be honest, knowing myself, I don’t think I ever will be. I have learned so much throughout my blogging/vlogging journey and I do have a feeling that I am progressing and getting better, but I will never reach the state of perfection that I wish to reach. Honestly though, do I even want to reach that point? I’m still having that moral discussion with myself sometimes since, in all honesty, I do think that living in the state of perfection would get rather boring after a while because you will have nothing to learn or to progress in. I think I’d rather live in an eternal learning curve, despite the insecurities and having to deal with the somewhat cruel thoughts that occasionally shoot through my mind.
Though those agonizing thoughts still haunt me from time to time and I sometimes still feel lost in a sea of insecurities, I will try to cross it to reach the lands of happiness and positivity. Let me know if you’d like to cross these waters together so we can have ourselves a wonderful nautical adventure and perhaps find a merry little land filled with wonders and treasures to get lost upon, shall we?
Speaking of land filled with wonders and treasures, I went on an adventure to The Trace and it was such a wonderful experience. The Trace is filled with lots of loveliness, it’s a very serene and peaceful place and definitely has a Sunday afternoon-vibe to it. I wore this lovely blouse and skirt from Cosmic Dust which is currently available at Kustom9 and matched it with one of my favorite pair of boots from Entice.
“Act like tomorrow just doesn’t exist
Time isn’t real, ain’t nothing on my wrist
Let go of everything, then you have bliss”
– G-Eazy, Let’s Get Lost
Hair: rezology Sky 208 *
Dress: [Cosmic Dust] – Emilia Blouse/Skirt Combo – Red @ Kustom9 *
Boots: Entice – The Rebels – Browns *
Head: .tsg. Runa Mesh Head A Tone *
Ears: .tsg. Mesh Head Elf Ear Add-on *Modest* A * – included w/ head
Body: Maitreya Mesh Body – Lara V3.5
Kustom9 | June 15 – July 10
NOTE: The Entice store is currently under construction. The slurl I have added is a temporary location. My apologies for the inconvenience.